Outpourings of Precious Psychosis

Head on his sleeves
Heart in his hands
Trying to make it
And meet their demands
Looking at the map
And driving along
Trying to read it
And still sing his song
What’s around the corner
And will we both be there?
Will there be enough money
Or will pockets be bare?

The car might not make it
The directions seem wrong
No one around to ask
And the journey’s so long

Sharp turns and wrong ways
Empty promises and backward days
Him there, me here
Helplessness boxed with fear
Say, when will it get brighter
And when will the burden get lighter
And when will we make it
And Lord, can we take it,
Whatever it takes to get where we’re going?
And how can we keep this up without knowing
What’s on the other side?
How long is this ride?

His hope’s growing dim
And it’s so hard to see.
I’m sinking slowly.
Heaven help me.

This song was written for us to rhyme to
All the stars and hearts come from you
We started with two notes of the same tune
And spoke with owls under the autumn moon
When you hold my hand I explode from the inside out
You are everything I want to know all and more about
We’ve fallen to pieces together in the dark of day
And you’re strong as a stone no matter what you say
You lose me my words and you find me my heart
You keep me my beat and you give me my start
Our journey’s been exciting but it’s also been rough
We’ve been thrown gold, but felt like it’s never enough
Sometimes we’ve closed our eyes and lost the way
But we’re here and we’re now, and I just wanted to say
I love you – you give me light
You give me my strength – you are my fight
All that you are amazes me
When I sleep at night, you know you’re what I see
I’m overcome with how great you are for me
There are no words to describe this type of happy
You and me – we fit, and that’s the end
You’re more than my love – you’re my best friend
I need you
And if you’re honest, you need me too
I believe that God above
Does send us blessings of love
And you are that something special to me
That something I’ve never imagined or dreamed
We are who they wish they were or could be
It’s impossible – they can’t come close to what they see

Where am I compared to you?
Is the bar set somewhere higher
Than I can ever get in view?
How close am I
To being totally out of your sight,
Lost as black as night?
Where am I?

Where am I inside your mind?
Am I a memory so quickly fading
That I’m about to be left behind?
How close are you
To losing patience with this
Endless struggle through?
Where am I?

Where am I inside your heart?
Do I have a space at all there,
Even if it falls apart?
How far am I
From the ear you need tonight?
Can I help you win this fight?
Where am I?

Where am I when it comes to showing care?
Am I just another face in the mix,
Just another name to put there?
How far are you
From never needing me again?
Is there anything I can do?
Where am I?

Where am I now that all is said and done?
Do you realize you’ve lost me,
That my shadow weighs a ton?
How close were we
To making it through each time?
Is it better now that you’re free?
But where am I?
Where am I?

Let’s go to Denmark.
We can watch Judging Amy and How It’s Made.
We can go kayaking and hiking.
We can build fires and watch them til they die.
I’ll picture you green.
You music me blue.

I’m sending out a message to you.
Do you understand it?
I’m messaging you through a bottle.
I wonder – did you get it?
I’m sorry I speak in riddles and rhymes
I’m hoping you understand it in time
I’m sending out a message to you:
Open it with your heart.

Let’s go walking in the sand.
We can build sand castles without a moat.
We can jump in the ocean when its at its coldest.
We can sit on a blanket and eat some grapes.
I’ll fall into rainbows
You climb into purple.

I’m sending out a message to you.
Do you understand it?
I’m messaging you through a bottle.
I wonder – did you get it?
I’m sorry I speak in riddles and rhymes
I’m hoping you understand it in time
I’m sending out a message to you:
Open it with your heart.

Try this again with me.
Hold out your hand to me.
Laugh aloud with my eyes.
Tell me I’m part of your sky.
What could be better than this?
Tell me what could be better than this?
Hold out your heart to me.
Say you belong with me.
Escape the unknowing.
Your feelings are glowing.
What could be better than that?
Tell me what could be better than that?

I’m sending out a message to you.
Do you understand it?
I’m messaging you through a bottle.
I wonder – did you get it?
I’m sorry I speak in riddles and rhymes
I’m hoping you understand it in time
I’m sending out a message to you:
Open it with your heart.

Let’s sing lullabies
Without riddles and without rhymes.
I’ll tell you the truth
I want to be with you.
All I want is for you
To want to be with me, too.

Once upon a time I was white
Imagine it, define it however you like
Daisies and wild flowers
Afternoon tea and super powers
The world was mine inside my hula hoop

One slash of black on my canvas
How did you expect me to take this?
Yellow trucks and large red letters
Don’t worry, darling, it’s all for the better
Backwards travelers lost in the crowd

The storm rolls, crashes of thunder
Insert the gloom that my eyes fell under
One red handed friend to guide me along
Two lost souls finding the way wrong
It’s funny how high school can drain you

Once upon a time I was black
Love was a lie and truth was a crack
Dirty hands water can’t wash clean
Broken hearts smothered in gasoline
I walked alone in chains of mold

Pressure is higher than sky
Ever smile is hiding another lie
Trust is a laugh and a broken arrow
Fire consumes the straight and the narrow
Hello, there, dreary clouds of shame

An opportunity for us all, dear
Things are better for us here
Don’t believe what they say
They’ll wash your independence away
But I let it sink through my skin

Twice upon a time I saw the light
It pierced my clouds and showered me white
Grace and mercy elevated above
Open your eyes to healing and love
So this is what it feels like to live

Happiness pierced me like a sword
Broke off my chains and cut my cord
Freedom to run with the daisies and the rain
Forgiveness of sins and relief from pain
I never thought life would find me again

Jump for joy, blink back tears
Laugh out loud, dance away fears
Life has found me again
Life is mine – let’s begin.